mon and i had a long talk last night... he asked bout my past bfs... and he told me bout his past gfs... my previous bfs' past gfs didnt matter to me... i didnt even care if they almos got married or what

 but to mon... for some reason i got hurt...

 i cant help but compare myself to them... maybe because its soo degrading as a gurl na ako ung unang w/c seems like habol ng habol.. i dunno.... i kinda regret y we even became us u know... i wish it was only friends nlng.. so i dont have to feel this way.....

 even d baby is affected.... i cried last night till like three am and d whole time d baby was moving about.... it hurts sooo much... but maybe its his way of comforting me (his kc sabi sa ultrasound boi wuhooo!!)

was soo excited to talk see him... but then.. d date went horrible... he's sooo moody.... he makes me feel like.... he'll get me when he wants me... its always like that.... even i think am being cheap running after him... damn... this is juz not me..... i gotta get him out of my hea.. gotta think that he's not a loss at all.... i cant be like this forver... i long to be the gurl in the movies where the guy is the one running after.... not like this.... this is emotional suicide....for once.. i wish he longs for me so bad because am d only one hus got the patience for his shitty attitude.... so unlike my other exes... i wish them to be happy.. him no.. i wish him a horrible life til he realizes am his life... haha am soo mean

was soo excited to talk see him... but then.. d date went horrible... he's sooo moody.... he makes me feel like.... he'll get me when he wants me... its always like that.... even i think am being cheap running after him... damn... this is juz not me..... i gotta get him out of my hea.. gotta think that he's not a loss at all.... i cant be like this forver... i long to be the gurl in the movies where the guy is the one running after.... not like this.... this is emotional suicide....for once.. i wish he longs for me so bad because am d only one hus got the patience for his shitty attitude.... so unlike my other exes... i wish them to be happy.. him no.. i wish him a horrible life til he realizes am his life... haha am soo mean

 

btw... debut went well..w/o him

wahahahah max called and asked if it was true.. if i was preggy... hahahahah

 am i even surprised it came from the teachers of al hekma? hahah dats juz funny

 am such a nice topic eh... heheeh soo hotttt.... wonder wat dey all said.. how dey sed it.... i dont really care... not like their opinons matter neway... deyd juz be amazed wat kinda woman il becum... wahahaha

yah i gez u can call me crazy.. even tho he was like pushing me away... almost throwing me off a cliff juz to not be his.. i still insisted.... can u blame me... he's part me of na...